THERE WERE THOSE WHO DWELLED IN DARKNESS AND THE SHADOW OF DEATH,

[catholicisms]

characters: matt and hopefully other people
location: all over
date/time: septemberish???
content: matt is doing stuff??
warnings: i forgot how bad i am at making open posts. other than that not so far

THE INVINCIBLE. ( if there's one thing Matt has really come to miss, it is access to easy takeout. he's not a cook and never has been, even though he can manage it if he tries to. he just doesn't care to try and has always preferred to pick the easy way out. so he hits up the Invincible once a day, give or take, to scrounge up something to eat. mostly for breakfast, paired with bad coffee, but he'll mix it up and take his dinner or lunch there on occasion. he's quiet, keeps to himself, usually eats and heads back out again. occasionally he'll stop and make small talk. he might even ask someone to read the bulletin for him, because he really hates having his tablet monotone it at him. on other occasions, though, he'll make good on what the sign behind the bar commands and will do the only job he feels suitable to complete. if you sit at the bar, he will make you something, and god bless you for being brave enough to give that a shot. Matt seems oddly amused to pour drinks, so are you going to tell him he can't? ) What are you having? ( he'll ask, and no matter the order, he'll probably just give you a shot of whatever bottle he has. good enough, right? better than when he somehow distinctly avoids giving people what they ask for, it's almost like he's messing with you... but go ahead, order something. maybe the blind guy can help you out. ) HELP FROM OUR FRIENDS. locked to 1 response, please! ( shortly after the arrival of new recruits, Matt is having his breakfast as he usually does, only there's something a bit different. his tablet is with him and let me tell you, that's a rarity. he pretty much only touches the damn thing when he's got nothing better to do, and when he's completely alone. sadly, he's tried and failed to figure this out on his own, and he's forced to concede defeat. whatever is on the thumbdrive left for him, he can't figure it out without help. Matt even gives it a last ditch effort, blindly tapping and even making a mutter of frustration. before he throws the tablet and the thumbdrive both for annoying him, he forces himself to do what he hates the most. whoever makes the mistake of walking past him will just have to suffer the consequences. ) Sorry, can you help me? Do you know anything about how to use this? ( Matt taps on the thumbdrive, to make his question obvious. ) I can't figure out what is on it, I can't get the accessibility features to work. THE GYM. ( Matt has done his fair bit of exploring, yet he hadn't known about the gym until it was mentioned at the meeting. and of course, despite the small crowd of people mentioning their desire to know how to protect themselves, he'd said nothing about it and just creeped off in the dark to check it out on his own. he's intentionally avoided visiting when people are present, though Matt knows there's plenty of opportunity to be walked in on. he's not doing anything remarkable, just wandering the place with his walking stick and feeling the place out. literally, he's touching everything, and occasionally making a face about how dirty it is. the only thing mildly remarkable is the drill he runs on the punching bag. though his form is somewhat lazy and one handed at that, the easy way he does it screams it's not his first set and probably not his last. but what's wrong with that, right? even blind guys should be allowed to exercise! ) THE WOODS. ( Matt likes a routine, and another he's grown into since arrival — especially recently — is wandering the treeline. the insects make the place seem a little less vacant, and while it's not the pleasant noise of his city, it is practically enjoyable. he also figures if anything is approaching, it'll probably come from the woods, and the proximity means he might just hear it. that said, if someone wanders a little too close, Matt will lift a hand in warning. ) Careful, ( he suggests gently. ) Not too noisy. ( the reason might not be readily apparent, but, look around a bit and you can spot the spirit that is probably blending in incredibly well with the foliage. Matt has no idea how to be a plant spirit parent, though he figures communing in nature is a part of the deal. so yes, he brings the baby out here frequently. ) WILDCARD. not feeling any of these? feel free to wildcard me or hit me up via pm or meowed to chat about something else! also, if you haven't, please fill out matt's permissions!!!

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I guess they wouldn't, but that still sucks. I'm sorry.

[ he's still a little (a lot) in love with a boy who's deaf. he doesn't know what it's like to live without one of his senses, but he knows that it's harder than it needs to be, sometimes. oftentimes.

it only makes him all the more determined to read to matt. ]

[catholicisms]

They got me a set of bibles. I guess that counts. ( most kids wouldn't be terribly interested in reading the bible, though Matt was a rare exception to that. he had done plenty of pouring over those words, hoping for answers and solace that seemed so hard to find.

Matt shrugs his shoulders at the apology. )

Don't be. I don't expect special treatment because I'm blind. ( it upset him at the time, but, age affords perspective. the nuns couldn't afford the cost of braille books. they spent plenty taking care of him, and at no point had Matt made that easy. it isn't something he's angry about now, looking back. )

[quotability]

It's not special treatment if it's normal for everyone else, is it?

[ he's thinking of sam, now. of learning sign language (the wrong sign language, at first) to speak to him in his own language, even though sam knows how to read lips, even though he didn't have to.

if he takes for granted that there are books he can read, that people speak to him in a way he can easily understand, why shouldn't it be something others can take for granted as well? ]

[catholicisms]

That's an idealistic way of looking at it.

( purchasing braille was more expensive than buying a book. besides, all the books at the orphanage were old, tattered things — donated at worst or bought from thrift at best. there wasn't a lot of braille to be found in thrift stores or the supplies donated by well-meaning people.

Matt isn't naive, he knows that his disability isn't easy to accommodate. the world isn't fair, or balanced. it is a burden on others to expect anyone else to bridge the gap of his blindness, especially in a situation as limited and bleak as this one. )

[quotability]

Yeah, maybe it is.

[ and maybe he's being naive — but he's not going to apologise for being idealistic, if that's what this is.

and he's not going to back down from the plan he's hatched, for all that he'll leave it for the time being, stay quiet for now. ]

[catholicisms]

( no, he doesn’t have to apologize. Matt doesn’t want him to. in fact: )

Idealist isn’t a bad thing to be. We could really use more of that around here.

( if anything, Matt is also a bit of an idealist. he’s always striving for a vision that is nigh impossible, yet he can’t help but fight tooth and nail for it anyway. it’s just that he’s an idealistic pessimist — he wants the best but expects the worst. an awkward combination. )