[ Dean's gaze slides away, and Castiel follows it, tilts his head a little, steps closer. Searches for that gaze and tries to draw it back. For what it's worth, he wants to see.
How often has Dean told him that there was another choice? And yet Castiel knows what this feels like, to be backed into a corner so thoroughly that it feels like no other options are left. So you say yes. To Crowley, to souls from purgatory. To Michael.
And it's here that he recognizes this Dean for his Dean, and how that brilliant, shattered soul of his tightens a barbe wire noose of guilt around itself. Older, then, but not, Castiel thinks, from elsewhere.
That's... not necessarily a relief. It means there are years between where Castiel last was, and where Dean last was, and yet they lead Dean to this. It brings back the worry, too, that they will be out of step with each other once again. They've fought so hard in Purgatory and after to fall back into comfort with one another, to mend the rifts that Castiel's war crimes and Castiel's actions put between them.
It's not something to dwell on right away. Castiel's swallows the concern. ]
How did you die?
[ How old are you. How did I fail you. How can I make it right. How are you. ]
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How often has Dean told him that there was another choice? And yet Castiel knows what this feels like, to be backed into a corner so thoroughly that it feels like no other options are left. So you say yes. To Crowley, to souls from purgatory. To Michael.
And it's here that he recognizes this Dean for his Dean, and how that brilliant, shattered soul of his tightens a barbe wire noose of guilt around itself. Older, then, but not, Castiel thinks, from elsewhere.
That's... not necessarily a relief. It means there are years between where Castiel last was, and where Dean last was, and yet they lead Dean to this. It brings back the worry, too, that they will be out of step with each other once again. They've fought so hard in Purgatory and after to fall back into comfort with one another, to mend the rifts that Castiel's war crimes and Castiel's actions put between them.
It's not something to dwell on right away. Castiel's swallows the concern. ]
How did you die?
[ How old are you. How did I fail you. How can I make it right. How are you. ]