That mental image is hilarious-- sadly not what they meant, though. "Yeah, go through six in a row, one right after the other, sometimes the metabolism is still trying to deal with the first five, so the sixth actually hits a little bit." They look down at the one in their hand now ruefully. "Now, like this. It's just. The motions feel right, I guess. That's all it is now."

It's entirely psychosomatic, these days, though Soldat doesn't know the word, even with their foray into the PTSD book from the ferry. The motions and the memory of comfort taken from them is enough to make it worth one now and then. Maybe not chain-smoking like they did in the war, but... now and then.