[Happy is an emotion Soldat knows mostly second-hand, recognizing in a memory and extrapolating from that. Do they have that lazy, comfortable contentment from the fire escape with Steve? Do they have the safe, accepted certainty from getting a bedtime story from Pa? Do they have the warm, touched gratitude from Steve insisting on patching him up after a fight?

Sometimes. In pieces. Not right now, because the loss of Aziraphale and Crowley still looms large, fueling sadness and guilt. But they've had it. So they can settle a little and say,]

I'm okay. I did promise Misty I'd try to get better. Not sure what better really looks like, though.