"You noticed, huh?" It wasn't possible for her to hide things from Riku. He knew her too well but she had hoped, that maybe he'd let her walk away and be with her thoughts. Even if she feared the isolation she felt when she was alone in the dark that encompassed Beacon.

"I'm not alright but I don't really know what's wrong. I'm finally alive and things are sad but they aren't hopeless but..." She looked up at him and felt her heart knot in her chest. "It's hard to explain, maybe because I haven't really felt like this before. There are so many new things and I want to help but... I don't know what I am doing."

She was trying her best but she couldn't fight like the others and in a sense it felt hopeless or somehow not fair.

"I just. Don't want to be sad or lonely anymore."