Sora does jump a little at the "fuck your friends" thing, his heart taking a dip, but relaxes at the end of the explanation, a small smile pulling at his mouth.
He does understand all of this, but he sort of thinks that the innate worth he attributes to everyone doesn't apply in the same way to himself. It's hard having proof that he's built to break more easily than others, that he's more vulnerable to self-doubt and fear than those who are supposed to carry the Keyblade. Sure, he doesn't intend on wasting time by dwelling on his flaws, but that doesn't mean he's allowed to forget his weaknesses either. (And even if he did, his enemies are very keen on exploiting his weaknesses for all they're worth - he HAS to keep himself in check or else they'll get the better of him.)
He just has to be careful. If he wants to be good and help everyone, he has to be careful. Riku isn't going to rescue him anymore. It's just him and his incomplete heart now.
"Riku told me that once. Not about the Keyblade, about my friends. Just like that, 'cept with less of the f word." He didn't believe him. Not really. That's a part of this whole mess, actually. On top of that, Riku told that to a complete Sora, and if that Sora didn't believe him, what hope does an incomplete heart and a bunch of jumbled up memories in a borrowed body have? He's not even Sora. Not really. The Riku here would die before telling him the same thing.
"I want to believe that." A part of him does, actually. It's one part him, one part the spike in his brain, but it's a net positive, right?
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He does understand all of this, but he sort of thinks that the innate worth he attributes to everyone doesn't apply in the same way to himself. It's hard having proof that he's built to break more easily than others, that he's more vulnerable to self-doubt and fear than those who are supposed to carry the Keyblade. Sure, he doesn't intend on wasting time by dwelling on his flaws, but that doesn't mean he's allowed to forget his weaknesses either. (And even if he did, his enemies are very keen on exploiting his weaknesses for all they're worth - he HAS to keep himself in check or else they'll get the better of him.)
He just has to be careful. If he wants to be good and help everyone, he has to be careful. Riku isn't going to rescue him anymore. It's just him and his incomplete heart now.
"Riku told me that once. Not about the Keyblade, about my friends. Just like that, 'cept with less of the f word." He didn't believe him. Not really. That's a part of this whole mess, actually. On top of that, Riku told that to a complete Sora, and if that Sora didn't believe him, what hope does an incomplete heart and a bunch of jumbled up memories in a borrowed body have? He's not even Sora. Not really. The Riku here would die before telling him the same thing.
"I want to believe that." A part of him does, actually. It's one part him, one part the spike in his brain, but it's a net positive, right?