Man, that's a loaded question. You're pretty good at those.
[ he sits there and stares at his tablet for a little while before replying. stares but doesn't really look at it. it's a question he's asked himself more times than he really cares to think about, so he thinks, just for a second, of the documentary that kid had been doing on spider-man — the one where he interviewed people from all around new york. manhattan.
it's not the same thing. it's not the same question — what do you think of spider-man? but it has echoes of it. peter parker had been asked what he thought of spider-man, and it had taken him a while to come up with an answer. ultimately, he'd decided he was mostly a good guy: he's human. he makes mistakes. he wants to save everyone but he knows he can't.
he hopes he's helping people, despite everything.
he knows he wouldn't be able to do that without the people in his life. it's not just may or mj, it's betty and jonah, too. it's robbie and randy and, inexplicably, it's fred. is it selfish? ]
I'm torn between saying yes and saying no. The actual answer's probably somewhere in the middle - you know, that whole thing about how virtually nothing's black and white? I don't think it's selfish, but maybe hoping for a normal life is. But for all of that, I think there's a lot of good that comes out of it, too. ...But maybe that's my way of making excuses. I wouldn't be any of who I am without my aunt and without MJ. Or my friends or my coworkers. Is it selfish to keep them in my life when they could get hurt? Have been hurt? I'd love to say I try not to think about that, but honestly? I think about that more than anything else.
At the same time... It's not my choice alone, you know? No matter how often I wish it was. You can't make that decision for anyone else.
Whoever's in your life - you're not forcing them to be in it. Probably. I mean, if you are, we've got bigger issues than wondering about whether it's selfish. Appreciate and love them while you've got them. You won't have them forever. I don't think that's selfish.
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[ he sits there and stares at his tablet for a little while before replying. stares but doesn't really look at it. it's a question he's asked himself more times than he really cares to think about, so he thinks, just for a second, of the documentary that kid had been doing on spider-man — the one where he interviewed people from all around new york. manhattan.
it's not the same thing. it's not the same question — what do you think of spider-man? but it has echoes of it. peter parker had been asked what he thought of spider-man, and it had taken him a while to come up with an answer. ultimately, he'd decided he was mostly a good guy: he's human. he makes mistakes. he wants to save everyone but he knows he can't.
he hopes he's helping people, despite everything.
he knows he wouldn't be able to do that without the people in his life. it's not just may or mj, it's betty and jonah, too. it's robbie and randy and, inexplicably, it's fred. is it selfish? ]
I'm torn between saying yes and saying no. The actual answer's probably somewhere in the middle - you know, that whole thing about how virtually nothing's black and white?
I don't think it's selfish, but maybe hoping for a normal life is.
But for all of that, I think there's a lot of good that comes out of it, too.
...But maybe that's my way of making excuses.
I wouldn't be any of who I am without my aunt and without MJ. Or my friends or my coworkers.
Is it selfish to keep them in my life when they could get hurt? Have been hurt?
I'd love to say I try not to think about that, but honestly? I think about that more than anything else.
At the same time... It's not my choice alone, you know? No matter how often I wish it was.
You can't make that decision for anyone else.
Whoever's in your life - you're not forcing them to be in it. Probably. I mean, if you are, we've got bigger issues than wondering about whether it's selfish.
Appreciate and love them while you've got them. You won't have them forever.
I don't think that's selfish.