Maybe. Or it just means I'm still in total denial.

[ she doesn't exactly sound bitter, but she might, just a little bit. but her own tone just makes her shake her head, like she knows her pessimism isn't helping - not him or herself. she sighs a big sigh, her universal sign for i'm moving on from that train of thought, and gives him a small smile instead. she's trying. but maybe trying too hard, and that.. literally never works for her. ]

Although I guess things worked out, back home. There would be a lot more of us here by now if they hadn't. Right?

[ it's probably too obvious that she's struggling to flip her mood around, and eventually she's moving to press the heels of her hands, resting her head back again the wall again. there's an ugh of disappointment, and it's totally at herself ]

I hate this. We shouldn't be here.

[ like they haven't said that to each other about a million times already ]