Yeah, I'm... definitely not ready for that yet. Moving on, or even grieving, really.
[ it takes her a moment, but eventually she feels confident enough in the decision sit across from him on the bed, one leg tucking under her so she can face him properly. you'd think after living with him for a few months, and the fact that the same damn car wreck killed them both, nance would stop feeling like she's imposing every time she lets herself get comfortable around him, but she thinks maybe she'll never get over that underlying feeling of i messed up, i messed up, i messed up from how things turned out for them. regret isn't quite the right word, but if she could change how things went? she would. even if they still split up, she'd still give just about anything to change the timeline a bit. find the courage to be braver, sooner. the thought doesn't plague her or anything, but it comes and goes.
especially in moments like these. ]
Grieving for El, and you? Yes. But I feel like as soon as I try to move on from being pissed off about what happened to us is the moment I give up on hoping we can get back. [ she shakes her head ] Although I really don't know if it's even possible. I mean if what we think happened really did happen, then we can't just wake up from that. We're not just stuck in the Upside Down, even if it sure as hell feels like it sometimes.
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[ it takes her a moment, but eventually she feels confident enough in the decision sit across from him on the bed, one leg tucking under her so she can face him properly. you'd think after living with him for a few months, and the fact that the same damn car wreck killed them both, nance would stop feeling like she's imposing every time she lets herself get comfortable around him, but she thinks maybe she'll never get over that underlying feeling of i messed up, i messed up, i messed up from how things turned out for them. regret isn't quite the right word, but if she could change how things went? she would. even if they still split up, she'd still give just about anything to change the timeline a bit. find the courage to be braver, sooner. the thought doesn't plague her or anything, but it comes and goes.
especially in moments like these. ]
Grieving for El, and you? Yes. But I feel like as soon as I try to move on from being pissed off about what happened to us is the moment I give up on hoping we can get back. [ she shakes her head ] Although I really don't know if it's even possible. I mean if what we think happened really did happen, then we can't just wake up from that. We're not just stuck in the Upside Down, even if it sure as hell feels like it sometimes.