( he lifts his shoulders in the saddest excuse for a shrug that Beacon has ever seen. did he really do everything he could have? if he'd noticed the boy was missing sooner, if he'd thought to question it a little faster — if he'd checked in with him more—
his weariness makes it easier to fall into a thought spiral that he's been trying to avoid. Matt pinches the bridge of his nose, as if that pressure can shake the thoughts from his brain. it doesn't work as well as he might like. )
It's what I expected to find. ( sadly, expecting that doesn't make the reality that much easier. he's not sure he wants to come in, or to eat, or to do anything. he's just that shade of miserable that nothing seems like a viable option. still, Matt did come all this way for a reason, even though he might whit out now knowing the spirit is asleep. it wouldn't make sense to wake the poor thing, it can wait until morning. it's not quite fair to seek out the reassurance of the little spirit he's been looking after, as if a batting average of 50% might make him feel better. he should just go home, pass out, and try to put on a better act of having it together in the morning. )
I don't know what I'm doing. ( or he can just make sad confessions, that too. )
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his weariness makes it easier to fall into a thought spiral that he's been trying to avoid. Matt pinches the bridge of his nose, as if that pressure can shake the thoughts from his brain. it doesn't work as well as he might like. )
It's what I expected to find. ( sadly, expecting that doesn't make the reality that much easier. he's not sure he wants to come in, or to eat, or to do anything. he's just that shade of miserable that nothing seems like a viable option. still, Matt did come all this way for a reason, even though he might whit out now knowing the spirit is asleep. it wouldn't make sense to wake the poor thing, it can wait until morning. it's not quite fair to seek out the reassurance of the little spirit he's been looking after, as if a batting average of 50% might make him feel better. he should just go home, pass out, and try to put on a better act of having it together in the morning. )
I don't know what I'm doing. ( or he can just make sad confessions, that too. )