Does not knowing mean it'd be easier to face anyone that heard? [ it's amusing to consider, q trying to just shake it off like anything else. but plenty of people at the cottage did hear, so. yep. ]

That wasn't what I was saying though. None of us wanted you to protect everyone. You don't ever protect yourself, and that's why it's. It hurts all of us. Or. Hurt, I guess, now. We're always hoping you can see what we see in you, but. It's like. Like you doon't want to?

A little, anyway.