When it's what you open with, [ peter responds, the utterance half a groan and half just tired, before eyeing the remains of his quote-unquote cup noodle. he places it down on the ground beside his feet, leaning forward and resting his chin in his hand — clearly it matters enough. his gaze shifts to jason for a second, then back to the bonfire: most of them here were between twenty and thirty, so whoever it was knew jason slightly later in life, which hints at the relationship (or lack thereof) between the two; says a lot about why jason might want to avoid them.
he thinks about what he'd do if it were norman (avoidance would pretty much be out of the question); otto? well, he was a better person. trying, certainly. he had regrets, but he'd helped people, he was learning, and wasn't that kind of the point? it didn't change anything otto had done, but it meant that maybe he'd do something good in the present, in the future. avoidance, again, probably wouldn't be the route peter'd choose.
he stretches his legs out in front of him, moving a little more slowly and delicately than usual, being careful enough that he doesn't jerk his wrist, before huffing an audible sigh. between people that peter misses and wouldn't want to see here, not ever, and the people peter basically never wants to see, ever, just generally, can they please just stay locked up, for once—
peter's not convinced avoidance would be the answer; not convinced pretending he's someone else from somewhere else ever works. ]
—So you're saying that whatever issue the two of you have, hasn't happened for him yet. Might not happen. [ there's a pause. he wants to say: you'd prefer it, wouldn't you? if you were the lone crazy guy, but he doesn't. whatever this is, evidently it's not easy for jason, and there's a moment where peter remembers that despite everything, jason is just a kid, really. not a kid-kid, but he's still pretty young. (and he'd been twelve—.)
god, he'd been such an ass at jason's age, struggling to balance his life — peter parker, friendships, relationships, schoolwork, work, spider-man, bills... ]
I'd ask if you're okay, but you've already said your day's sucked and whatever it is, whoever he is to you matters enough that you want to avoid him, twenty years displaced, so—.
I can't say what I'd do in your shoes. I've never been in your shoes, not like this. [ tony, what if it was tony, and he'd just realised (again) that he'd made the biggest mistake of his life—. ] But maybe you've got a chance to change it for him. Make it different for a version of you. Would that matter?
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he thinks about what he'd do if it were norman (avoidance would pretty much be out of the question); otto? well, he was a better person. trying, certainly. he had regrets, but he'd helped people, he was learning, and wasn't that kind of the point? it didn't change anything otto had done, but it meant that maybe he'd do something good in the present, in the future. avoidance, again, probably wouldn't be the route peter'd choose.
he stretches his legs out in front of him, moving a little more slowly and delicately than usual, being careful enough that he doesn't jerk his wrist, before huffing an audible sigh. between people that peter misses and wouldn't want to see here, not ever, and the people peter basically never wants to see, ever, just generally, can they please just stay locked up, for once—
peter's not convinced avoidance would be the answer; not convinced pretending he's someone else from somewhere else ever works. ]
—So you're saying that whatever issue the two of you have, hasn't happened for him yet. Might not happen. [ there's a pause. he wants to say: you'd prefer it, wouldn't you? if you were the lone crazy guy, but he doesn't. whatever this is, evidently it's not easy for jason, and there's a moment where peter remembers that despite everything, jason is just a kid, really. not a kid-kid, but he's still pretty young. (and he'd been twelve—.)
god, he'd been such an ass at jason's age, struggling to balance his life — peter parker, friendships, relationships, schoolwork, work, spider-man, bills... ]
I'd ask if you're okay, but you've already said your day's sucked and whatever it is, whoever he is to you matters enough that you want to avoid him, twenty years displaced, so—.
I can't say what I'd do in your shoes. I've never been in your shoes, not like this. [ tony, what if it was tony, and he'd just realised (again) that he'd made the biggest mistake of his life—. ] But maybe you've got a chance to change it for him. Make it different for a version of you. Would that matter?